I am

Have you ever had one of those days where nothing was going right and you just felt like nothing you did would be enough?

Yeah... Well, I think I have felt like that for a month or longer depending on the area of my life. 

Yesterday morning, I had a revelation. I am enough.

I have been so overwhelmed with all my callings in life that I feel as though I was stretched too thin and unable to be good at any of them.

I am a teacher, a mom, a wife, a daughter, a primary presidency member, a friend... And if I took the time, my list could go on. 

Teaching is so important to me. These kids spend 6+ hours with me to get an education, but I think that as part of the village, my job is to help them become amazing people and they are just that. They are amazing people. I am so proud of my kiddos that I see 180 days of the year! 

As a mom, I am told it is the most important calling in life. To be able to raise your child to be the best person that he/she can be. To do that, you need to be there and be involved. I feel as I fail this all the time, but I am so glad that our family has the love and support from our personal families and our ward family.

Being a wife is also important because we need to be a family unit. I know that when the kids are grown and gone, it'll be me and him again. We have to learn to love each other, know each other, grow together, and all the other things in our marriage and relationship that make being together so worthwhile. I love my amazing husband for all he is all that he does, even the irritating parts. And I am sure the feeling is mutual.

I am a daughter. I live about 1.5 hours away from home. I should be out there more. Life is just so busy and with a kid, you can never schedule in sickness so life has become go with the flow so I am thankful for technology to at least talk to my mom! 

Being a part of the Primary Presidency is huge. I feel so overwhelmed all the time. I was called in December as first counselor and I have been rolling on the ball ever since. I do my best most of the time... At least I hope. I feel like I am now past the initial learning stages and I need to dive into it all so much more. It's important too because it's our job to teach and to help the teachers and leaders that we guide so the children are learning about the gospel. 

I feel like I am a crummy friend... I literally have to schedule in time with my friends because if I do not my life listed above takes it first. I'm lucky if I get to hang out with a  friend once a month... And I have so many good friendships over the years that I have made and want to make sure I keep open because God has blessed me with some amazing friends in this life. 

After reading this you may understand why I felt so frazzled and stretched thin. Every job I have in life is important. Every job I have has an influencing role whether it's helping/being with my family, educating the young minds in multiple settings, or just being a decent person and friend. 

I am trying. I'm not perfect, but I am enough. As long as I do not stop trying to better myself, then I am sure I will always be enough. :)

Family Story

So as a member of the LDS church, we are encouraged to keep a family record, and not just genealogy, but to share actual stories.

Earlier this week, I was thinking about my dad, and I thought about the routines he had. I notice as I get older, I share much of these routines and choices. 

My dad was a hard working man! He was up at 4:30 every morning whether he worked or not and went to bed around 9:30 every night. Sleeping in for him, which was rare, was only until 5. 

As a teenager, I thought my dad was crazy and a few times I let him know it. Each time, he'd share with me some life-long important skills. 1st- once your body is used to something, it's hard to break the habit. 2nd- there is purpose in your life by waking up and beginning to accomplish the things that need to be done. You can then rest easy with your family or friends around dinner and after. 

My dad was up every morning at 4:30 and followed his routine, the same every day. He got ready for the day, had coffee and breakfast, watched the news, and eventually would leave unless it was his day off then he would get busy working around the house.

For the last 3 years, I had a job that required me to be at work by 7 and with each passing year I had to get up earlier because of changes I had made in my life. So, for the last year and a half I am use to waking up around 4:30 in the morning. Weeks like this week, I have gotten up around 3 every day. It makes me realize how crazy I seem to younger people, but it is true what my dad always told me. Your body is use to routines and we get to accomplish many things. It makes me appreciate my dad and his early morning and early to bed habits!

Jan./Feb.

So much, yet so little has happened. 

We were all sick for weeks, literally. I got sick between Christmas and New Year's and I really didn't get better until just after President's Day Weekend. The worst of it was over Martin Luther King Jr. weekend, I actually missed a day school even with the longer weekend. Baby girl was sick not quite as long and as for Josh, his sickness left and came back. So this cold season has just been terrible. It's made it so we can't visit some family which really sucks! 

Anyway, we've all been busy! Baby girl has been saying 2 incomplete sentences when she feels she needs too. "I want..." and I totally forgot the other. Lol. Whoops. 

We planted a garden, go to the park and play when we can, and have been trying to eat healthier. It's not working that well because when pregnant, I can handle only what I can handle. Which is sweet stuff and carbs... Seriously annoying! 

Anyway, Josh and I have been busy with church callings, work, and just balancing life. We both have been working a lot. Josh just found out he will be moving to a different shift which will be really good for everyone! 

Our Christmas Surprise

Our Christmas surprise really wasn't on back order. This mommy just wanted to wait to share our Christmas and our anniversary surprise! 

So we are expecting a bundle of joy coming the end of August. So woo-hoo! 

Christmas

Hello all!

December has been pretty much the same as in my last post: sickness, busyness, fun, and love. I've also seen some beautiful sunrises and sunsets.

 

Monday night, we went to Craig Ranch Park to see the Christmas lights. Baby Girl saw Santa and cried.

 

Christmas was awesome! Baby Girl and I went to grandma Ali's & grandpa Clark's for the day on Christmas Eve. Baby girl got lots of awesome things! 

 

That evening, we opened one gift: Christmas pajamas! She sure does look cute! 

Christmas Day was a cranky day... Baby girl was teething. We opened up presents at the house. Baby Girl gots some shoes and a book. I was busy making food all day. We took a long nap and then headed over to grandma Sheri's. She got the rest of her books. She also got more clothes and a toy. Sadly no pictures... But everyone opened there gifts at once. 

Josh and I also got a surprise, but it's on back order so I'll show you once we get it! 

Hope everyone had a Merry Christmas! 

November/December

The last few months have been crazy!

Illness has spread through this house... Multiple times! In fact, at Baby Girl's check up today we found out she's got an ear infection. :(

We spent Thanksgiving here at home! We put up our tree, did some Christmas shopping, and just spent some well needed time with each other. 

We celebrated Baby Girl's birthday. I got a new calling as first counselor in the primary presidency.

We've been fighting off colds, caught some amazing sunrises and sunsets, and had some crazy hair days. I've also broke my glasses. Josh has been working plenty of overtime. We got our new car registered. There have just been a lot of fun-filled days and plenty of love and colds to go around! 

It's been busy, but good. It truly is a blessing to live this life! 

1st Birthday

Baby girl turned one earlier this month and it was quite the celebration! 

She spent her birthday at home eating a peanut butter and jelly sandwhich and enjoying playing with her new bath toys! 

Then for the weekend, we went to see my parents and she got some new toys that she just loves! 

Sunday evening was Josh's family dinner. We had Mac n' Cheese with broccoli and keibasa along with a side of applesauce. We then had spice cake and chocolate ice cream for dessert. She got some new toys and a few books. 

It was a fun, fun, fun birthday!